Full Disclosure

I decided when I started this blog, that I was just going to be completely honest.  Only my close friends read it, and it would be wrong to lie to them.  But really, today I debated about lying about my yesterday.  I had a great breakfast, and a really low cal lunch.  I walked for 45 minutes, then I took Ezra to the playground and we played for 75 minutes, climbing, crawling, rolling down hills, running, jumping.  But then, I don't know what happened.

Last night, I ate a ton of cookies. :-(  It wasn't stress eating.  It wasn't boredom eating.  I don't know what it was.  Lack of self-control, I guess.  Or food addiction/binge eating.  I just ate and ate and ate cookies.  And I feel awful about it.  And really depressed about my failure.  I had been doing so good. And I didn't just fall off the wagon, I jumped off the wagon with both feet and landed in a big pile of cookies.  For dinner last night, I ate 2200 calories worth of cookies and 3 cups of milk.

And after, I thought about lying on here about my dinner.  I thought about avoiding the subject entirely and just not posting.  I felt like a failure.

But if I'm going to have any success, I've got to be honest about the good and the bad.  I've got to work to make things like today happen less and less and less.  I feel like I'm starting back at square one.