sometimes it's the little things

It's amazing how the smallest of things can totally throw you of the plan.

Today, I had a healthy great breakfast. Went to church.

After church, we went to a birthday party. I was hungry. I had packed myself a larabar just in case there were no on-plan foods to eat. They did have lettuce and berries, so I made myself a delightful little berry salad, but ignored my larabar. By the time I got home, I was starving! 

I came home and didn't know what to do. I sliced up a cucumber. Ate it all.

Then I opened the jar of almond butter. BIG MISTAKE.

I polished off almost a third of a jar of almond butter because I lost control.

Stupid mistake.

And now I'm not hungry for dinner. But if I don't eat, I'll be starving at bedtime.

So I'm having a smaller dinner of kale and a chicken breast to power me through. Even though I am not quite hungry. I don't want my not eating too lead me down the path of destruction and poor choices again.

the witching hour

It never fails. Every night around 9 pm, I start craving a snack.

Everyone else is in bed.

I can finally ready something alone without having to share.

Without having to make extra for anyone else.

I'm all alone. And I want to eat.

Can't I find anything more constructive to do?

day 1, over. 29 more to go

Okay, so I ate today. Every meal, I ate until I was full. But I still don't feel satisfied. My mind keeps saying things like, "cookies, ice cream, cake, chocolate." It doesn't even make sense, because I really have eaten my full at every meal. Why does my brain do this?

The meals and one smaller snackish meal because I just could not make it through the afternoon. Hopefully I'll get better at this as it goes on.

1 meal down, 89 to go

I promise, I'm not going to post every time I eat, out every single thing I eat, out even take pictures of all of it. Because that. Is. Annoying. But I did have some thoughts today as I get started on this journey to better health, so I'm posting.

Plus it's my blog, I can do what I want.

But just for information purposes, breakfast today was an egg scramble with onions, green peppers, and mushrooms. Although it totally could have benefited from some spinach thrown in there too. Also some cheese. Definitely cheese. And I added a cup of vanilla roiboos tea to make it feel slightly decadent. It needed sugar. But in all, it was a lot of food and I feel full and that's a good thing.

So I didn't take the advice of the Whole30 people and do a fridge and pantry clean-out. Because I am cheap. And there are three other people in my home. And they will eat the good. I plan on buying less and less of the processed junk as we go on, but I just couldn't justify getting rid of it. So I guess that means I will have to battle my desires more. Sometimes it is hard being frugal, (Or a total tightwad, in my case), but this clean eating is already going to be so much more expensive, I've got to save where I can and just be strong.

It's only for 30 days. I can do anything for thirty days, right?

In other news, Gus-gus, my youngest, had chocolate cheerios for breakfast. Which he dumped his entire water glass into. Then he let them soak and proceeded to fix his hair with chocolate cheerio water. It's a good look for him and I now have a mess to go clean up. Good thing I love that kid. :-)

starting over

Post baby #2. And I really need to do something. So it's time to start over. I'm planning on starting a whole 30 the day after Easter. It seems like such a daunting task and so much planning. But everyone who I know that had done one talks about how much their energy increased. And I think that is the one thing I need most right now. More energy. Less lethargy.

Countdown to whole 30: 13 days

Currently reading: It Starts With Food

Camping

I think Mr. Incredible just realized how much he is going to miss me while I'm away at camp.  He asked me yesterday if I'd like to go camping the night we get back.  Because he wants to spend time together.  Now, it's awful sweet of him, so I don't really want to say no.

But there are lots of other reasons I do want to say no.  For example, I'd have just spent a week with 18 teenagers, I'd like the peace and quiet of my own home.  I'll miss my home.  My clothes will need to be washed.  I'd like to sleep in my own bed again. Etc, etc, etc.

But I do love Mr. Incredible.  And I love spending time with him.  So I probably won't tell him these things, because I know he won't think of them on his own.

And we'll go camping.

And I'll have fun.

And I'll just sleep in my bed on Saturday.  What's one more day, right?

Getting there

Well, I have been slacking on the exercise.  I've still been working in the garden a lot.  And I've still been eating healthy.  But I haven't been working out nearly enough.

However, I am getting a little bit ahead, which feels great.

I've got at least 3 weeks of Sunday School lessons done.  That'll get me through at least camp.
I finished my garden out back minus some small painting I want to do on some pots.
I mailed out birthday party invitations.  I've got the menu and shopping lists ready to go.

Now on my list is clean house. And do the shopping.  And I can't decide how to do the cake for the party or if we should do a cake at all...  Pack for camp.  Get my insurance sheets signed for camp.

Maybe today I'll go to the bank and do most of my shopping.  If the boys ever wake up...